You know sometimes, I wonder why am I friends with her. She don't usually make me feel happy. She used to say the meanest things to me.
But I close my ears. I take it as a joke.
But sometimes, it gets too much. She takes my craziness for granted.
She did not even bother about my feelings. I have feelings too.
I put on smile everyday does not mean I'm always happy. (no no)..
I didn't scold her back. I didn't tell her off. I just din't want.
No.. I just CAN'T.
She is my friend afterall.
But she can really make me super uptight angry. When she calls, I just put down the phone.
I know it makes her angry. But I just don't know what to do.
I hate it whenever she start her horrible attitude.
It hurts me.
Eventhough I keep it a silence, I did not say a word about it.
Does not make me ok with it. But she just don't get it.
Every morning I woke her up. It either she pick up my call or hangup.
It really irritates me when she didn't even bother to answer it.
And she still have the cheeks to tell me, she was sleepy.
(answer the phone for goodness sake!)
Another thing is when I woke her up and she fell asleep again.
When I thought she was already preparing.
And she will text me this
"ne, aku baru bangun. kau nk kau pg dulu ar"
wth sia!
It can really make me burn down the whole house.
IRRITATING!!!
But never once I told her all this. She thought (yes till now) I'm alright with it.
And when I finally meet her that day.
She will give me this stupid bitchy face and pulls her tongue out.
Without even saying sorry.
I could not say a word. I was too annoyed to even talk to her about this.
She will argue with me. She will make sure she wins.
And me? I will tend to give in.
She's happy. I'm pissed.
Case closed.
That is always the problem.
She thinks she's right. She thinks she's the perfect one.
I couldn't bat an eye on it.
But whenever I'm down, she'll know how to make me smile.
Whenever I cry, she'll know how to make me laugh again.
She say the right words. Do the right things. Make it all ok.
There's many things that makes me appreciate her.
She's the only one who knows the right word in my head all the time.
She live in my mind, I guess...
And so can I. We can never trick one another.
We know how we think. We are alike in a different way.
If you get what I mean.
She is always there when I need her. When everyone else turn down on me.
She will be the only one standing by my side.
Walking together with me, making sure I don't do anything stupid.
hmmmmmm...
Well, I guess that is why I'm friends with her.
That special thing that happens between the two of us.
The special tie connected.
I love her.
=)
